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- bulletfactory0
In-flight wireless ftw!! Posting from somewhere over the Midwest. Traveling with 3 other people, so 1 person bought the Internet access and created a wifi hotspot we're all piggy-backing on. Woot!
- fourth0
I've been trying to hustle and find freelance work. been a little stressed about money. Quit coffee and sugar. bleh
- pango0
to all the regular qoobs. I love you all man. you guys keep me entertained everyday.
- < thisZOOP
- +1********
- ecstasy is hellava drugautoflavour
- ironically, ecstasy makes your dick sad.pango
- ********0
She asked me if my friends are gonna come visit me.
I replied that maybe just one.
She asked if I was gonna get laid...
Who cares?!- who?monospaced
- mom?pango
- lol. this girl I fancy.********
- if she asked you if you were gonna get laid, is because she wants you to fuck her, not someone else. just sayin'sea_sea
- yep... sounds like she's in to you.ohhhhhsnap
- monospaced0
Staying at the Trump hotel in Chicago. Sent my brown shoes to hospitality to be shined, explicitly telling them that they are light brown and being assured they could do it using a neutral polish. Shoes were returned with black splotches. I pointed this out, and within two hours I had a new pair. They actually went out and bought me the same shoes. That's service.
- someone got fired over a pair of shoes...ZOOP
- oh shit... I hope not!monospaced
- well at least you didn't murder the guy lolZOOP
- damn that's fancyscarabin
- great service indeed. lol @ ZOOP!********
- Thank god they had a Walmart close by!goldieboy
- shoes are from Allen Edmondmonospaced
- what a waste.ohhhhhsnap
- Waste? How is that?monospaced
- pango0
SWEEET CAROLINE~~~ LA~LA~LA~~~~ LA~~~
- mom?monospaced
- http://www.youtube.c…pango
- oh the whiskey... :)sea_sea
- ohhhhhsnap0
triste.
- i mean consado. my spanish is so bad!ohhhhhsnap
- hahahaha. Triste y cansadoMiesfan
- autoflavour0
I have started drinking green smoothies..
and to be honest, i feel great.this last week i started a 10 day detox (ending the day before i go to amsterdam for a long weekend with the boys), and the first few days were super hard.. felt crap and was crazy hungry.
but now, its all kind of normalized..
its also much cheaper, quicker and easier than preparing meals everyday.. plus its much healthier.
i have so much energy.
also, i have lost 7kg
- 10 day detox 4 day retoxautoflavour
- need a better blender though..autoflavour
- I'm thinking detox should be more transitional, not as much of a shock.ZOOP
- auto get the vitamix for your smoothies, serious business. and high five! :)sea_sea
- "Detox" is a load of shit. The human body is incredible at managing toxins. I think Detox should just be called "Healthy"inteliboy
- sea, i was looking at a vitamix, alas over her in germany they are like 750 euro (970USD)
autoflavour - and i too used to think detox was rubbish, until i did one.. and honestly, i feel so much better for itautoflavour
- its bullshit to say the human body can automatically detox. it depends on the amount of toxins being put inautoflavour
- eat bad, drink a lot, drugs.. the body only has so much ability to clean, otherwise it just stores itautoflavour
- Some toxins do build up. Women and children should eat tuna no more than once a week. If that.ZOOP
- Mercury levels accumulate. Same goes for carbon monoxide.ZOOP
- ZOOP0
Woke up at 4:30, no reason, it happens all the time. I know why but I've never talk about it. Got a cup of coffee, took ibuprofen for the chronic spinal issue I've had my entire adult life.
Sat down at the comp to watch a few vids on here, hoping for a couple hours sleep afterward. Big mistake. Clicked on a vid that brought all the things about my life growing up that I keep buried, things I wouldn't wish on anyone.
I've never had anyone in my 40 years of life that could relate, not since my years growing up, my peers were also from destroyed homes. Some of them didn't make it, and I miss them more because I couldn't save them. I couldn't do anything, to watch one by one the people I felt closest to pass in the worst ways, most too young to drive.
By age ten my father had been involved with organized crime figures for several years, through his job. I'd known fear and violence on a daily basis longer than that. Always told me I was born fucked up (congenital melanocytic nevus), so I guess that's why he decided I wasn't worth keeping around, nor my brother.
Hit and run by a '68 Camaro that floored the pedal (about 70mph) shortly before aiming at us. Hit my brother head on, hit me so hard with the mirror it slammed me on my back and broke my arm. I got up and flagged down a car with the one arm that still moved.
My dad got back in town, he wanted to drop the charges after the driver was caught. Took the first offer from the insurance company (against the lawyer's advice, also part of the same crime family btw) and then spent thousands on bars and women.
Over the decades the pieces have come together, but I can't prove it. First day back in school after the so called accident, a detective was in the principal's office, showing me a photo lineup. Nobody told me what was going on, I didn't know what these pictures were for.
The only way I'll know the whole truth is a deathbed confession, from a man I haven't seen in over 20 years, and skipped town owing me money I loaned him to survive on. If I had only known then what I know now...
My survival strategy has always been to justify my existence though hard work, to prove I'm not worthless and that the things I was told as a child aren't true about me.
This is just a piece of my life, not who I am. I've never talked about or written any of this before to anyone outside of my brother and my mom. I was in a position to know things neither of them knew, not even until this year.
If anyone has any advice on how I can keep my past buried, please email me. It used to be easy, a workaholic doesn't have time to remember, just move forward. My career fell apart, so I don't have that anymore.- Forgot to mention, the police believed this was to claim substantial life insurance policies on us.ZOOP
- Saw a man executed right in front of me while he begged not to die, I've just seen too much. : (ZOOP
- At 22 hospitalized, untreated would have died in two weeks. Girl staying with me was raped in my house by an intruder.ZOOP
- Was months before I could speak much (blood clot to brain) I feel waves of guilt for not being there.ZOOP
- Nervous breakdown at 14, locked up in a group home finally admitting to myself my dreams were all dead. mehZOOP
- Yes I have PTSD, no I don't want meds. I just want someone I can talk to. :'(ZOOP
- You've never talked about this before ever and you spill your guts on QBN? I feel honored and wish I had some advice.monospaced
- Is burying those experiences the answer, or is talking about them with a professional a better idea? Sometimes facing them will bring relief.monospaced
- facing your past can bring relief and clarity to your present and future.monospaced
- I don't know, I always felt I would meet someone that had similar experiences. Never have, people just don't know.ZOOP
- This is so fucked up, people come to me for help and advice. I'm supposed to be the strong one.ZOOP
- Jesus dude. its amazing you're still sane enough to type coherently. clearly you are strong. dont forget thatHombre_Lobo
- You should speak to a councilor 100%. Don't bury that stuff, you'll just carry it. and it sounds like a lot to carryHombre_Lobo
- asked my missus, a psych grad soon to do doctorate, she recommends a councilor for sure,says will help massivelyHombre_Lobo
- I've thought about it many times, I don't ask for help though, I never have for anything in life.ZOOP
- Pride is a real motherfucker, won't let you admit defeat.ZOOP
- It does feel somehow right to write this out. My mom has major mental blocks, my brother seems to prefer to forget.ZOOP
- forget or deny.ZOOP
- and thank you Hombre =) the missus sounds like a keeper btw lolZOOP
- Oh and hi mono! People in your life will treat you like a disease if you tell them this. Sad but true my friend.ZOOP
- v welcome! haha, you proud bastard, get to a councilor!
only idiots treat you like a disease. not QBN! :D
Hombre_Lobo - Kind of weird out of all the places, I felt safest talking about this on QBN. Hard to find better people than these =)ZOOP
- albums0
ZOOP, sent.
- Hombre_Lobo0
Just remember ages ago asking for logo feedback on QBN.
One piece had gradients and drop shadows to the max, the other was plain and minimal. Everyone preferred the plain and minimal one.
QBN called out flat design long before it got popular.
Or as set rightly said on twitter, 'flat design' is just minimal design that has been around for ages. someone just gave it a name. (but don't hold me to that quote!)
- exactly. i've seen the colour scheme and style years ago. 4 to 5pango
- OBBTKN0
Busiest month in years... i´m too old for this.
Meh! Not true, only need a bit of rest, and back to work!!
- pango0
has any one read this book?
"Oneironautics – A Field Guide to Lucid Dreaming"
sounds like hours of fun with out being on drug.
- ********0
— I dreamt about you last night...
— Why?!
— You messaged me.
— Was it a nightmare?
— No, we were inside this empty house with only graffiti on it.
— Nothing? (I almost asked no bed)
— Everything was blue, and purple and yellow...- I have no game for the girls I like...damn it!********
- if she's telling you she dreamt about you last night, odds are she had a wet dream about you dummy.sea_sea
- :D********
- I have no game for the girls I like...damn it!
- albums0
oey, signs point to it was a good dream. :) read below.
sidenote: why introduce negativity into conversation?
some suggestions if I may... (also, If she keeps talking, you should invite her out.)
— I dreamt about you last night...
— Was I nice? :)
— You messaged me.
— Oh yeah, was it fun, did I call this time? :P
— No, we were inside this empty house with only graffiti on it.
— Weird, was it our graffiti?
— Everything was blue, and purple and yellow...-
Blue
Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream, may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind. Alternatively, the color blue may also be a metaphor for "being blue" and feeling sad.
If you are wearing light blue in your dream, then it symbolizes your creativity. You like to pace yourself in whatever you are doing.
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Purple
Purple is indicative of devotion, healing abilities, loving, kindness, and compassion. It is also the color of royalty, high rank, justice, wealth and dignity.
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Yellow
The color yellow has both positive and negative connotations. If the dream is a pleasant one, then the color yellow is symbolic of intellect, energy, agility, happiness, harmony, and wisdom. On the other hand, if the dream is an unpleasant one, then the color represents deceit, disgrace, betrayal, cowardice and sickness. You have a fear or an inability to make a decision or to take action. Your desire to please others is at the risk of sacrificing your own needs and happiness. As a result, you are experiencing many setbacks.
To dream of a yellow room suggests that you need to use your mind. You are feeling mentally stimulated.
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Dream Colors from http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamt…
- wow! I want to invite her out for two months now...********
- 2 months man, ask her out to dinner at least, a show if possible, not a movie.albums
- something socially personal where you can talk / discuss whatever is going onalbums
- confident like you know she's been waiting for you to askalbums
- yea, I know. it's so close. she looks over the shoulder when she passes by. but she works with me. and she's dutch.********
- dutch are dangerous. they like to flirt with several guys until they pick the one.********
- she asked the other day if i was gonna get laid. one time she told me she didn't like me********
- anymore while drinking the tea and staring at me at the same time. or other things. i'm not sure it's a good idea. but i want it so bad. hahahaha!********
- it so badly. she knows. maybe she's playing with it. dunno. her ex- works with us. she says he's her best friend.********
- dude, it's a date, not a life commitment, take the plunge. :)albums
- i agree, it won't hurt. say something like.."so, are we gonna go out or not?".. girls, we like assertive. do it!sea_sea
- nice dream interpretation albums. :)sea_sea
- wow! I want to invite her out for two months now...
- moldero0
2 of my friends (a buddy and his girlfriend) are visiting me in Mazatlan right now, yesterday they almost drowned, the rip took them way out past the break in a blink of an eye. 2 life guards swam out to them and struggled to even make it back in themselves after almost 55 minutes.
Funny thing is, I swam out to all 4 of them (including the lifeguards) WITH MY DOG, they were all like "GO BACK! GO BACK!" so I swam back in around 10 minutes and waited for them for about 30 minutes before they finally made it back, funny thing was the suppose-ed life guards struggled as much as my friends and barely made it back themselves. the life guards should have been smart enough to put their bodies as much to the surface as much as possible, the stronger part of the rip was just below the surface.- wow man i'm glad you and your friends are OK. (i don't know how to swim, it's a good time to learn)ohhhhhsnap
- The sensation of drowning is no groovy :\ZOOP
- damn man. rips are scary, good they are all ok. your dog sounds like a bad ass,.inteliboy
- take care in the ocean moldy. i came too close to losing my life in big surf. learn your beach's conditions...sine
- oh i was fine, the other 4 weren't.
but tru-dat brada, I almost lost it twice in the bay areamoldero
- pressplay0
I just read that otto muehl, the josef fritzl of the artworld, died at the age of 87. good day. burn in hell you scum, hope your death was slow and painful.
- ohhhhhsnap0
been sober for over 48 hours. neeeeeeddddd beeeerrrrrr