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- Fabricio25
Man... dealing with depression absolutely f...g sucks.
At 38, I expected to be having some future plans issues, thinking about buying a place, moving to a different country, meeting a new boyfriend, etc.
But instead, I have to keep changing medication and seeing which ones worked and which one didnt, talking constantly with psychologist and realising it is not helping me much either. And I dont even feel like talking to friends about this anymore, as I got tired of hearing myself talking about this (and quite embarassed to be honest...as it feels thatI dont have my shit together, which at the moment, it is true)...Going outside is also a struggle, a constant battle to continue doing the things I used to do, or enjoy, like playing videogames, etc. I dont even feel like drawing or doing any personal artwork anymore, as it is hard enough to find energy to do the commercial projects.
I wish I could just go back to my normal self from 2 years, snap my fingers and suddenly, not having to rely on medication to sleep or to stop myself from feeling miserable. Go back to my drawings and 3D experiments, finish my shortfilm, etc...
Does it really "get better" or was this just some sweet internet cute moment? Hehe..
Sorry for the long rant.
- Sucks, hang in there man, them meds are sometimes as bad if not worse than the condition they are treating (have been on many over the years),dee-dubs
- but hopefully you may find one that works better! Anyway, you ain't alone and I'm sure many QBNer's been though or going through similar that can empathise.dee-dubs
- as someone that goes through similar shit. let it pass, that's what i learned. meds can be a bummer, it took me several years to get it right. be strong man!renderedred
- and yes, some meds make it worse, take care.renderedred
- take care brother.pango
- This will pass, mate... don't force yourself to be-creating-superb-a... From my experience, this creates a LOT of anxietyOBBTKN
- Especially when you're on a burnout phase. Take a break, get out, take care of meds and alcohol, and like renderedred said, be strong!!OBBTKN
- ^ "creating superb art all the days"OBBTKN
- Focus on self development, everything is gonna be fine, give it some time, it's not gonna happen overnight. Hang on.ApeRobot
- And talk about it with someone confident with you... therapists are not the best listeners sometimes...OBBTKN
- Sorry to hear you going through it, but you'll find a way. I find this guy has helped me so much recently: https://www.youtube.…Ianbolton
- you can do big things in small steps. focus on getting the easy, tiny things done... you'll start feeling better.robthelad
- my mum's been trough it and it has been the worst episode in both our lives so far. It does go away some time, it really does!mekk
- You're already doing the hardest / most productive thing you can do - talking about it with friends and a professional. Lots of people don't get that far.Fax_Benson
- stick with that. The drugs I guess may or may not work but talking will, long term.Fax_Benson
- Hey Fabricio, I was there last year (minus the meds), you will turn it around, just keep your spirit up including with others (avoid self-pity at all costs)spl33nidoru
- make short term plans (less crushing) and reasonable daily goals/lists, be kind with yourself, you'll come out of this strongerspl33nidoru
- Health is wealth brother; hang in their!
Keep moving, eat well and take care of #1.
: )ideaist - I'm surrounded by it brother. Family, friends, colleagues even my wife suffered post natal depression. It'll get better dude, stay strong. Exercise and water.Hayzilla
- Fabricio, are you also trying natural alternatives? My combination is CBD, deep breathing techniques, sweat lodge therapy, vitamin D3, massage, among others.sea_sea
- I guess what I'm saying is you have to find a way to do more self care. Do the work drag yourself to the gym whatever will work for you.sea_sea
- Something that will help spark up that joy. Produce more serotonin etc. I know how difficult it is, trust me. Here for you.sea_sea
- What aperobot said, self development is key. Take control. You got this.sea_sea
- Sea_sea +1
It goes away but it takes a while. psychologists and medications don't allow it vanish they just sweep it under the rug. Do the natural methods...Beeswax - Your work is dope by the way. Dont plan the future much.none of my dreams become true but I can't be more thankful for the moment that I'm living and breathing.Beeswax
- Sorry guys and girls, didnt want to sound so alarming :( Yeah, this frigging sucks...and I feel like I am not heading to a proper direction, hence me venting ouFabricio
- And to see if someone has experienced similar things. It is brilliant so many of your responses and support. I cannot thank you guys enough!Fabricio
- The thing about this not happening overnight I guess is part of the problem... I really, just want to go back to normal, and it feels like I have no control..Fabricio
- ...about this. But I am extremely thankful for everything you have written so far, I will take it to my heart, really <3Fabricio
- vent all the way down man, we're here to listen (:mekk
- Yeah, I've been trying some natural stuff, specially for sleeping... sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesnt. I also started with meditationFabricio
- What SeaSea said, are you trying natural remedies. CBD worked wonders for me. wish id known about it years ago!microkorg
- Keep going... And always remember today will tomorrow soon. Find the small wins, don't overwhelm yourself with trying to do it allnecromation
- All the best! Never give up. Try not to think about it all the time. Your thoughts are going in circles. Distract yourself as much as you can.SimonFFM
- Hope you're ok man - I've been up and down a lot lately too. Try keep in touch with friends as much as possible, talk to them. Try exercise as much as you can.pedromendez
- A new hobby away form work might help too - that shifted my focus and gave me something new to obsess about. Best of luck dude.pedromendez
- Man, try to sleep, take time for you. cut social media for a while, even screen time. Hang in there!Salarrue
- Try probiotics + Vitamin B complexdrgs
- As important as emotions are, remember feelings aren't facts. Ur friends are there for you and care about u, if u feel like a burden, remember u are not = fact!whatthefunk
- I'm sorry to hear Fabricio...stay strong bro!!!utopian
- Fabrico, one thing that always cheers me up is posting things on the Trump thread to piss off mono, then he comments to act like he's really smart. Try that!robotron3k
- https://wjfranklin.c…dbloc
- https://newatlas.com…zaq
- seriously @robo there's a time and a place to be a troll.renderedred
- Dont know what I could say to help.. but keep on fighting. I can tell you moving into a new career helped me a ton. Maybe try labour work, something different.eryx
- Good luck Fabricio. I have you covered by 15 years and I still have no fucking clue about my future. You're young!BusterBoy
- You guys are awesome, thank you so much. I will look into all these links and the advices. Thank you :)Fabricio
- Fabricio, stay strong! You can go through this. As mentioned by @Fax above, the fact you're talking about this & have the courage to share w/ others, is huge!Krassy
- Remember always that you are capable and strong enough to re-program yourself and change both your feelings and your thoughts. You're powerful!Krassy
- I hear you man! I'm quite a bit older than you, and I'm on 3 psyche meds every day. But they've helped me a lot, and I'm much better than I was 2 years ago.boobs
- Take good care of your microbiome! That might require changing your diet and exercising more. Try meditation and the Wim Hof cold showers & breathing exercises.Krassy
- Try new hobbies. Don't avoid people. Stay away from meds. Go to techno raves. Go hiking. Swim. Run. Play backgammon with strangers in the park....Krassy
- Do continue to talk to us on here. This QBN community is absolutely incredible and has proven time & again to be supportive and to be beating a big big heart :)Krassy
- Krassy, this is so heartwarming, thank you so much. I've been trying new hobbies, and they do help, even if it is a tiny bit.Fabricio
- I've been learning how to play guitar, and also to produce sounds and synths inside ableton... getting a bit into music production, which is completely outFabricio
- of my comfort zone. Going through different paths, etc.. I feel this does help me a bit, But yeah, I hope I can shake this off eventually...Fabricio
- I hear you Fabricio, i'm also in a bad period right now, having anxiety crisis and shit. So much things going on in my head for a long time.Bennn
- It's exactly that fabricio, one step, one good feeling thought at a time. After a while the minutes become hours and days. It's not far, trust your instincts.sea_sea
- Self care for me is key. We put so much pressure on ourselves. Give yourself a break and find fun stuff to do.sea_sea
- welcome to the mid-life crisis! and no, nothing works to help it (well having 2 young kids lessens it for me).pr2
- @Krassy: you rock.
@Fab: you rock too! keep the process going.uan - Think of things you're grateful for. Get back to creating the awesome stuff you share with us in Recent Work. Watch Adam West Batman.CyBrainX
- read this https://en.wikipedia…srhadden
- I would recommend seeing an actual licensed therapist.pango
- I went through the exact same thing for a few years. Krassy is right re: the gut/mind connection. Pre + probiotics, exercise and time help. Hugs too. xMelanie