Bi-Polar bear
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- kidswift-0
As i have only been off the meds properly for just over ten days now its hard for me to gauge what how many times i swing. But I would say a couple of times a week every week I am kinda lucky though as i seem to get more ups then downs. However the dark times can be so bad it actually makes me fearful of being up as it always feels like it takes back twice a bad as it gives. Leaving you to be living with this apprehensive fear of the blues lying in wait for you...
Some people only have a couple of ups and downs a year. Mine are usually only a day at a time though dark periods can last for a few days / sometimes a week though I desperately fight it and try and make myself do things a day or two into it to haul myself kicking and screaming back into the sun.
- chossy0
would regular excercise help?. I know when I get manic and stressed I find a muckel run or bike ride seems to calm me down hugely, I don't mean to hop on the bike as soon as you feel manic I mean in general after work go for a run and perhaps in time it may help dissapate your energy... I'm no doctor but I'm sure it's worth talking to one about.
- ********0
i just saw a nice documentary about bipolar disorder on the bbc last week, stephen fry (one of my heroes btw) took a closer look at the phenomenon (he has it himself) i learned a lot about the pros and cons of taking medication (lithium etc)
bolus
(Oct 2 06, 01:51)yeah. robbie williams got it too..
- ********0
btw.
my therapist sort of refuses to give my 'issue' a name, i guess it is strategy of some sort.
but she has learned me to meditate, even though i should do it more at home, esp. the breathing pattern is important.
- kidswift-0
Thats really intersting that your therapist refuses to give it a label, good on her Crouwel. I refuse to let people call me mentally ill my gf says it sometimes and its drives me fucking crazy. I think of it as more a gift / curse depending on my mood but really do feel like I live my life in a richer tapestry because of it and given the choice would be no other way...
- ********0
"Thats really intersting that your therapist refuses to give it a label, good on her Crouwel."
well, yes and no. i have been asking for this several times, but she does not want to point it out, just go on ahead and work on it.
however, i have been in very difficult social situations in which i had hoped for some name to excuse for my behaviour.. :/
- Nairn0
Jesus Christ, I defy any half-intelligent first world citizen NOT to be in some way bloody manically depressed.
It's not a, but the human condition.
- kidswift-0
Regular exercise does help balance things a little chossy esp if I am really up. I guess one thing that my gf and others have trouble relating to is i can still be way manic after a 10km run even though i am fucked i am rushing on the inside and its the emotional highs that drain you more so per say than the pysical attributes of it. But yeah your right all excercise is good and releases the endorphins and helps bring balance to your body and mind.
- kidswift-0
Your right actually Crouwel I guess after two years of freaking out and wondering what the f was wrong with me and why i was acting as impulsively and manically as I did and also saying some very hurtful and out of character things to friends it was good to finally to put a name to what is wrong with me. Its just sometimes I hate the stigma involved with the label and think sometimes acknowleding what you have, learing to live with it and moving on is the best regardless of the name you give it. All the best though bro and feel free to email me how you feel and what happens as I have done a hell of a lot of research into my condition and can throw some laymans light onto it if it helps you out..
- ********0
word.
one thing that helps me as well is go out there, just walk and take photographs of things. really really helps me a lot.
- kidswift-0
I have to disagree on this one Nairn. Yes everyone gets a little hyperactive sometimes or depressed at others. But if you are truley manic depressive / Bi-Polar it quite different. I don't even want to go into some of the fucked up and highly embarrassing things my condition has led me to do. But belive you me its not the sort of behaviour I ever used to have before this condition reared its ugly head about 4yrs ago. I agree to a pont that traits of this are in the human condition but no way in hell does everyone i know go through what my mind puts me through. If I am wrong on this and they do then your far better actors than i could ever be...
- ********0
"But if you are truley manic depressive / Bi-Polar it quite different. I don't even want to go into some of the fucked up and highly embarrassing things my condition has led me to do."
*nods
you have to be there to know. it is a cliché, but it is hard to get a grasp of the extremities here..
- vespa0
it's bad that there is still a stigma attached to mental illness.
my bassist from my first ever band was manic depressive. unfortunately he used to take a lot of ecstacy and smoke weed, the weed made him paranoid but the e comedowns had REALLY bad effects, it was pretty horrible, he tried to finish himself a few times which was awful. DON'T take recreationals!!!
have you tried to convert your experiences into a creative channel?
- kidswift-0
Yup i draw, paint, write and have a company me and friends have started to promote ethical and sustainable living in the Uk
www.thisisnotmy.co.uk
Yes these things help channel the mania but sometimes they are not enough or to way way too much..
- ********0
DON'T take recreationals!!!
vespa
(Oct 2 06, 05:16)when i was a teenager i had a period of drinking when i was 14/15, then i found out something was up with me, didn't know what, and then i quit drinking for about 6 years. ever since then i rarely get utterly wasted, perhaps a bit drunk every now and then, but never to the extremes.
same goes for drugs. never touched any hard-drugs, except for the time in barcelona with some of you punks ;) where the coke went round and round and at one point i just tasted it a bit. i thought it was crap..
anyway, i don't go about and tell others whether they should use it or not, unless they are in tough/hazardous situations.
i got a very strong sexdrive though, but i cannot channel that as my mind battles with my body about these things.
i could never go see a prostitute as i would really loathe myself afterwards..tough person i am hehe...
- Nairn0
Oh my - the pieces fit together..
Sex Clowns, Crouwel?
:)
ps. what I said in my previous post wasn't said lightly.
- ********0
i need to channel my creativity as well. but as some know i have quit design, well, the design as i knew it; commercial design. it did not at all give me satisfaction and it is better for me to do something 'dry' in terms of creativity for a while and see what i can put out there all by myself..more like an artist perhaps. even though i hate the title..
- ********0
Oh my - the pieces fit together..
Sex Clowns, Crouwel?
:)
ps. what I said in my previous post wasn't said lightly.
Nairn
(Oct 2 06, 05:24)hahahaha! 'xactly!
- vespa0
well i guess everyone knows whether they can handle come-downs or not, so i didn't mean to sound patronising, but our bassist didn't know his limits and it was pretty horrible for the rest of us
great site! (thisisnotmy)
- kidswift-0
Your right Vespa. One shouldn't take recreationals in any mental state where your not youself. Esp Class A's that will totally mess with your delicated chemical make up of your brain and nervous system.
*Nod to you Crouwel reg sex drive my is off the fuckin map some days. But like you have managed to keep away from the dark side of prostitution. though def had one to many one night stands i regretted back in the day I would totally attribute to the dark gift...