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    So deeply sad right now. I miss my now ex-boyfriend so much. He wouldn't end it and i felt more and more that I wasn't getting what I needed so I cut the chord. He hasn't been there for me and I heard a few things from mutual friends recently that kinda pushed me over the edge. But I also i feel panicked that he's not going to be there anymore. I woke up in the middle of the night wishing I could take it all back but i really shouldn't.

    Things had been broken between us for a while and I was just hanging on. But I can't just possess someone and call that love. Love takes more work, it isn't just having someone and attachment. But, I feel totally lost at the moment. If i could just hug him one more time... The last time we saw each other, I cried and cried because deep down I kind of knew it'd be the last time we'd see each other. the depth of my sorry is nothing I've ever felt before.

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    • :(pango
    • ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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    • it'll pass. it'll take a while but it will pass.hans_glib
    • Sorry to hear, hit the gym as much as you can, workout hard to ease to ease your anxiety and withdrawals.robotron3k
    • And get a land line.pango
    • It's shit and there is no heads up. Better let emotions have you until it's over instead of hiding it from yourself. Lovesickness is totally okay :-)mekk
    • I went through some shitty days after my breakup. The tendency to want to cling on to *something* so we're not just floating in the ether is real.Gucci
    • The thing about that is...it's also a lie. That nagging feeling you had, is the one you'll be thanking yourself for listening to when life is back on track.Gucci
    • Take time to allow yourself to mourn and feel shitty for today. Maybe tomorrow too, but that's it. Chin up for better days.Gucci
    • Sorry to hear. Just grind through this next little bit. As tough as it may seem right now, you know you've done the right thing.desmo
    • thanks for letting me vent, guys. I'm really stressed out.shellie
    • we've been hanging around here a long, long time now. You have always struck me as one of the strongest voices, and one of the strongest souls here.exador1
    • Like all the rest of the gang here, I know you're hurting right now. but tomorrow, it'll be just a tiny bit less. And the day after that, a bit less againexador1
    • Always keep in mind the reasons for taking this step. It wasn't out of the blue. You had a REASON :) ...so don't second guess yourself.exador1
    • Doing the right thing often hurts. but you still know it was the right thing. You're gonna be ok. Just take your time. Heal...exador1
    • ...then get back out there and kick some ass :)exador1
    • The hurt is from the IDEA you had of that person not the actual person. Trust me I'm going through my fair share of it right now.GM278
    • But things end for a reason and when you are ready and available you'll meet someone even better.GM278
    • my last year and a half has been like this shellie...I live in the same project as my ex. that's makes it really difficult
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    • and the hurt from letting go this idea of the person you though or wanted to be with will be long gone. Trust!GM278
    • I miss her a lot. and sometimes we hug and I feel peace. I love her somehow but I cano not imagine having a relationship. and I don't feel attracted to her.
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    • (Also you have a sick bug to work on, pop them valve covers off, grab a 13mm wrench and .006" feeler gauge and get to work - cheaper than therapy) :PGM278
    • I'm sure I'll never have something so sweet like we had but I really feel attracted to other people.
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    • and found out I feel better with myself if there's nobody with expectations or something.
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    • out of respect for the place we live I really don't have a life, like meeting people, bringing people home, having relationships.
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    • I know it would totally hurt her and I0ve hurt her too much already. I feel sad, lonely, melancholic but I produce more. still it's not healthy.
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    • it would be so simple to be in love with her like it was in the beginning but I realized that I put other people before me.
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    • and some take things for granted. sorry...I was now in my own trip.
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    • I just want to let you to know that I understand what you mean with the hugging and hanging..and i wish you better times.
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    • one really has to take care of him/her self and put themselves first. what one feels and wants. if you can do it by not hurting someone else perfect.
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    • if you hurt someone or feel hurt about these decisions, what matters is honesty to yourself and to your partner.
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    • it might hurt but that's what's really respect. hope you find your way. don't do crazy things like being irresponsible but be crazy and enjoy your time.
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    • *sigh* I tried to pull him up with me but he was really weighing me down. He hurt me really bad, and i just couldn't take it anymore. Once we broke up peopleshellie
    • told me a lot more stuff that kinda kept me from sliding back into his arms. I can't be with someone who lies to me. there's no excuse.shellie
    • Love and trust go hand in hand and you can't build anything on lies. Anyone that isn't igniting your fire is only putting it out, kiddo.GM278
    • So sorry shell. fuck all that, you deserve better.sea_sea
    • Not only do you deserve better, but sounds like you know what you don't want. No worse pain than heartbreak I here you girl. For what it's worth, we're here. <3sea_sea
    • I also applaud you for having the strength to break it off. Shows character and it takes courage to make those moves. You got this.sea_sea
    • Listen to some break up albums, they'll never sound so goodMrBixler
    • Listen to the misery of Scandinavian bands such as ABBA to make you feel better.

      https://www.youtube.…      mort_
    • Sorry for your pain Shellie. Fucked up thing is it hurts whether it was right for you or not. But this sounds like it was right for you. Hugs.mort_
    • most uplifting heartbreak song:
      https://www.youtube.…      hotroddy
    • So sorry. Hang in there. Get some exercise. It'll get better. :(mandomafioso
    • Hang in there kiddo:)utopian
    • Time will heal,....kind in the same situation.ApeRobot
    • takes a lot to get over this. Its not fun. Take time to work on yourself. Love is a multi directional enterty. If one is slacking and the other missing, get outmugwart
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