Nairn / Detritus
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- kelpie
check your iamnairn mail if you get a chance mate, ta
- mistermik0
nothing there?
- max_prophet0
He's gone to the airport to meet gary glitter
- kelpie0
yeah, I need to warn him about that.
- Concrete0
Exquisite facial hair.
Both of them...
- kuzzAAAAM0
OMG! Both terrifying and enlightening... it's true reality does start
unraveling at a thought... and everytiime i let mself go - there it
went. Not so much disintegrating - but wrenched away from me. i saw what oblivion was like. And i saw my ego's
desperate attachement to it's illussions. And everything, all my
memories all the imprints i'd accumulated were revealed as just a
dream. And reality itself was just a dream. And it was time i found
out... as soon as you stop believing it, it disappears. i was
dissapearin, and when i go, reality goes too... i? i? i? i? i? you...
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. NO. i fuck you. i FUCK you. Make a sentence,
a sentence is real. a sentence is thought, is thought, thought is
thought NO. stand up. Yes, up, one leg, my leg, floor hard feel it
floor and bed, yes, feel foot on floor feel carpet feel rug soft smell
taste heady body leg - sensation. Yes sensation is real. Sensation is
real sensation is sensed i sense i here i real. Fuck, of course. yeah.
Coool. Stand up, shake it off., ok cool, interesting drug, i'm ok now,
just walk it off, put this on the shelf, why is that radio on? shit
it's part of this, it's in on it! ok i need to not to for asecond then
i'll lie on my bed and let my self go to THiS DRUG. Jus i need i for
now i need i istill i TV my TV, touch, yes touch, cold heard plastic
glass TV here, TV real. TV is a thought, All is thought. Thought is
everything. Nothing more than thought. Shall we tell him? it's time he
found out. it's time to reveal ourselves to you. No, i'm on my bed.
Look it thinks i - it thinks i relates to bed. No??!! Bed goes i go.
Look it's remembering. it thinks memory is real. No??!!! Memory goes i
go. Look it's thinking about people... people are emotions, people are
my emotions, we are emotions, emotions are thought, thougts are real?
No??!! Thoughts go, i go. i needs thoughts. Of course! *i* needs
thought. "i" needs thoughts?Yes!! So think. Think bed. i think bed
sensation . i think bed sensation - bed is real. i think room
sensation. room is real. i think *me* sensation. i'm real. almost
there. i remember. i remember i wanted the
experience. i remember wanting the experience. i wanted this? oh. i
remember now. i wanted this. So everthing else is real too? i think
people. people in my memory. memory - chronology: people in memory in
chronolgy. People are emotions, emotions are thought, thoughts are
real. People are real. Ok, people. yes i remembe HiM. He's a cunt. And my sister – have to email her. Gotta phone him. Oh and her, we've been flirting, text, emails, facebook, i
wonder if i'll fuck her this Saturday. Ha, facebook, that's such
bollox that is. Fucking facebook can kiss my ass. See? you have values
too! She's like 6 years
younger than me lol i kno, it's almost a different genearation And
what's worse is that she's not someone you would , or i would, yeah
""i", no doubt about that now. She's sooo fucking hot tho. She has
gorgeous hair, perfect skin, her eyes, fuck, striking blue.she really
looks after herself. Oh and her cunt, i want vt all slipperly and
slimey, i wanna slide into it, i wanna lick her arsehole, i wonder how
i'm going to introduce that on satruday - anal play. always easiest
when you're fucking her in the shower. God i'm so horny.Reality is thought and thought only exists if i believe in them. i
have to will myself into existence. Force needed to will into existence. Massive.I want a taco.
Thanks Ewen!
- So... drugs then. Am I right? Huh?
HUH?!?!?!?!Spookyhome - geez what drug was that kuz? you been going down the k hole again?vespa
- is that the Kratom? be carefulkelpie
- salvia + dxm + sky diamond = glorykuzzAAAAM
- nice one Hunterkelpie
- was typed under 30 secondsjaylarson
- i think this is the new orange campaign...paraselene
- all these bats... swooping and screeching...PonyBoy
- haha para!vespa
- glad someone in the forest heard that particular tree fall... ;)paraselene
- So... drugs then. Am I right? Huh?
- Spookyhome0
Don't devote too much time and effort into willing yourself into existence. You've got to earn a living and maintain the synaptic web of social relationships you've cultivated over the years.
- Not to mention all that anal play you've got lined up for the weekend.Spookyhome
- haha, yes. it's gonna be a loooong bank holiday :DkuzzAAAAM
- Spookyhome0
I bet he's busy cranking one out right now.
- kelpie0
^ moral of story: watch that Kratom stuff, its a bit out there
- Spookyhome0
^ I don't wish to experience anything that might lead me to the bone shatteringly tense idea that I have to put all of my energy into self-belief for fear of nonexisting if I fail to maintain it. That's like hanging on for dear life to an accelerating centrifuge.
- Kuzz, let go a for second. See what happens if you stop believing in yourself. Report back.Spookyhome
- You don't have to hang on if you're on the inside ;)rounce
- Spookyhome0
Kuzz, Stop believing in yourself. I have stopped believing in you. I have stopped believing in you entirely. I have stopped believing in him entirely. Have you?
You have too? We just thought about him, and now we have stopped. He's not here. He never was. We used to believe in him. What was his name?
Oh Yes. Khurram. We used to believe in Khurram. We believed in the idea of Khurram for long enough that he began to believe in himself. And the we stopped, and inertia meant he carried on for a bit but without our support he couldn't maintain it for long and he was gone again.
Poor Kurrom. Gone again. What was his name?
Koram.
Krom.
Kom.
Om.
mmmmm.
Gone.
- But you are ME. You can't unthink me, because i am the individuted other to you - don't you see????kuzzAAAAM
- I stopped believing in myself. Five minutes ago.Spookyhome
- it's just ego death, is what i'm trying to say. only ego death. and that's NOTHiNG.kuzzAAAAM
- Ego gets a bad rep. Ego is good. Ego stops us from becoming automatons. Ego is rebellion...Spookyhome
- ... without rebellion, we are not individuals. Without our seperate sense of self we remain infants...Spookyhome
- ... and our id perishes. Without the id, we cannot function without direction, so we become drones...Spookyhome
- ... doing the bidding of any instruction we are given. Ego Is Good. So is shower sex.Spookyhome
- Shower Sex will not be possible without your ego Khurram.Spookyhome
- or Viagra, in his case I should imaginekelpie
- Or a shower come to think ofit. You do HAVE a shower do you Khurram? Just checking.Spookyhome
- you don't need your ego, Tim. Let it go.. .trust me... let it go....kuzzAAAAM
- max_prophet0
What better spot for universal self loathing than a thread with nairn's name on it?
- moth0
Kuz - that was nearly as dull as Hunter S. Thompson.
- skt0
oh dear god.
- kelpie0
btw, all I wanted to know was something about using Live Trace.
you existential cunts
- Spookyhome0
But what IS LiveTrace really? I mean, does it KNOW what it is? What it does? Or is it sleeping. Or is it just part of you and me?
HUH?
HUH?
- Spookyhome0
Khurram, please report back to QBN Immediately, before the effects wear off and post-prandial shame and disillusionment set in like existential rigormortis.
- kelpie0
I think he might have come down already
the chances of Kuz actually, properly losing his ego are slim at best
- < wry understatement in action, fellaskelpie
- what are you insinuating Simon?kuzzAAAAM
- your ego is massive mate :D no bad thing in a young whippersnapper about town either ;)kelpie
- ha. No no, you are wrong. For i have achieved enlightenment....kuzzAAAAM
- haha bollocks!kelpie
- To proudly proclaim to have found enlightenment in that fashion is a pefect illustration of the ego at work. = )Spookyhome
- moth0
He could easily conceal his ego under his arrogance. Not sure about loosing it entirely though. It would refuse to leave.