f#ck me!
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- DutchBoy
i just hate putting up my portfolio so much it almost made me throw up!
Lately I learn so much I tend to laugh (or better yet: cry) at work from years back.
I know my current work is different, and my future work is much more 'tight ass'..
fuck i am so angry at myself now!!! >:(
- grayhood0
there, there. dutchy.
it will be ok, want a soda?
- DutchBoy0
yes please.
i am going to give this shit up by the way. i always pitched nice freelance jobs without any reference to my portfolio.
i think i am going to layout a very well designed letter with a solid story in it and send them out tomorrow morning.
- kinetic0
that reminds me of that episode of family guy where peter was pouting in the stands at the medieval festival cause the black night gave him the boot and stewie was like "hey big guy...how ya doin? you want a soda?
hahahha. classic
- Rand0
every year when the deadline for the CA design competition rolls around, i look back over the past year's work, get depressed and don't enter anything
- DutchBoy0
EXACTLY!
and earlier this month i got an invitation to submit my work for a traveling exhibition about design from my particular region and the deadline is 30 april!!
and i need to pay major tax this week and thousands of euros on other shite.. bills i haven't paid yet since my adventure in Belgium last year was a complete disaster as I don't know how to cope with Belgian business people as they are so utterly vague and never on time at appointments and what not! And they warned me for it here in the Netherlands!
I am on the verge of getting depressed again.
but i won't.
i don't even care as much anymore when they are coming to fetch my computer etc.
i will always be a designer regardless.. because i love it more then whatever profession out there, and all that i have learned (and is in my head) will never be taken away!
fuck it... i am going to have a few wines and sleep over this matter..
maybe i wake up with some amazing ideas how to make big bugs this month!
- DutchBoy0
i am such a sad mofo at this point, just refreshing this column like a madman in the hope to see ... i have no frigging idea.
fuck fuck fuck!!
- pascii0
gnnrrrr-rrr! more often than not you have a portfolio - mine is a bunch of shitty copies and 8o GB to go through...
well, i can look at it when it is finished, and remember WE ARE ALL GOOD!
- Rand0
let the alternating waves of sadness and defeat run their course
- DutchBoy0
no, the more ace work i see on this site the more i loathe my own past work.
- DutchBoy0
but thanks for the heads up tho, pascii!
- pascii0
well, i know that we all evolve : ) most of us will never be 'top ace designers' (come on, what does that mean???)
but we all do our best and with attitudeā¢ and all the other sick shit we have to live with as creative humans.
and as thecherry on the cream my first art director said to me: 'a
certain measured of lethargy has still none one harmed!'
- DutchBoy0
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- DutchBoy0
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- Gorbie0
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- tfsmag0
head up janne, you could always do what jox does for spare change....
- DutchBoy0
whatever.
- DutchBoy0
sorry for being a wanker.
just breaking my brains on the usual designer existentialism.
with a lot of wine! 8)
- jevad0
hey dutchie - sorry to hear you're having such a rough time of it...I get to feeling the same way every once in a while you know - I think a lot of designers do - it's jsut human nature - but it makes you a better person/designer/whatever in teh end because you are rationalising and thinking things out...which is never a bad thing.
So hang in there and if you need any help with anything just drop me an email.
- DutchBoy0
thx, jevad.
see my last few posts in the Neubau Berlin thread to see what my new strategy is..
i am actually feeling new motivation now..