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i'm gonna rant, 'cause i've had a shit couple of weeks. and i'm feeling sorry for myself. and i'm trying to stay positive. and i'm trying not to fuck up.
"boo fucking hoo. deal with it."
the last two months i've regularly worked from 8-5, and then 6-10 in the evening on deadlines, extending to 12 or 1 am on days i needed to issue drafts to the client. i also manage our entire office, including the staff and IT infrastructure. we expanded from 3 employees to 10 in a couple of weeks. but i took care of motherfucking business, and in the process learned a lot and earned much respect from anyone who gives a shit.
in between all this i'm trying to make time to see my girlfriend, who's going through really big life-changes... resigning at her job, starting her masters degree, helping her move house twice in a month (after the first move didn't work out). she's also manic-depressive, but we manage it pretty well most of the time. she's responsible with her medication, and i keep her honest about it. but it can be demanding...
i can add addendums to addendums about everything else going on on the side daily (like dealing with one co-worker who is stealing from the company and overcharging her hours, while not taking care of her workload, which affects the entire project), but then this post will never end...
the last couple of weeks i've worked more than i've slept. i've had dental surgery twice and had to go back to the office afterwards to manage the workload. i opened up to my girlfriend about my idea to stop living in two places, renting out my apartment and getting a house together once she's completed her degree.
in the last week my gf broke up with me because she thinks i'm looking for other women. i worked super-overtime to complete our project. i broke my thumb when i broke a window to get into my gf's apartment after she sent me a message saying she's going to hurt herself. (she wasn't even home.) i destroyed my phone jumping over her gate. everything's covered in my blood... my clothes, my car.
i've put more into my job, myself personally, and into my relationship than ever before. last night some asshole broke my car window. didn't steal anything, there's nothing to steal in my car. just smashed my window and dented the door.
i've worked harder than i've ever done. spent all my energy. broke my soul. and the universe keeps telling me to go fuck myself...
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- thanks. i'm there already...sine
- I always have one in my drawer. well not the 18 years one and no not at work. at home. working at home today...pango
- same here. at home. and i've gone cheap. bottle of JD master distiller is all i have in the cabinet...sine
- the path of a jedi is never smoothscarabin
- word. i've taken a couple days off, and i'm dusting off...sine
- epic. literary bleeding for your job. hang in there.inteliboy
- Walk from the girl. There are plenty of good women who would appreciate a hard working, and dedicated man such as yourself.stoplying