Stress when semi-asleep
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I think I recognize the feelings you're talking about, if not having had them in exactly the same situation. I think the clinical term for it - and it is a legitimate one, is 'dread'.
My experience of it in its clearest state is waking up with a hangover - not just the physical effects, which I obviously got used to over the last 25 years or so, but as I became a responsible husband and father, as I started to 'come to' after getting a bit loose was a forboding feeling, that things could slip through my fingers, and get out of control - my mind would race in lots of directions about how this might happen, all of it related to my ability and efforts to control the support network of our little family. The feeling of 'dread', is, to me, slightly expansive, if not overtly psychedelic - the consciousness is furtive and somewhat non-linear, multi-threaded, almost dream-like, and the body not entirely connected. It is this feeling that leads me to connect my uneasy hungover mentality with the inter-sleep you describe. Do you regularly drink late at night and does this correlate ? Anything else ? It's no good having the same chemical habits as you did 10 years ago, you can't drive an older car like a new one.
And I wouldn't put a tv in your bedroom and fall asleep to it - that's just so much uncontrollable noise and information going into your brain non-stop, that shit'll make you depressed real quick.
Or more depressed - could you have some mild depression that you're managing to keep under wraps ?
Honestly I would speak to a doctor about it, it is a symptom, it'd be good to find out of what, rather than hoping it goes away, which it might, but what causes it might go unrecognised.
If you are anxious about starting a family and not being able to - that's a significant worry, explore it and deal with it.
I hope you find the peace you deserve, best wishes to you and your wife, let us know how you get on. All the best, mate :)