The trouble with you... ?
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I don't have a single friend. Not one.
I've never had a meaningful conversation with anybody my entire life.
I feel completely indifferent toward everyone that I've ever met.
I assume people already dislike me the moment they meet me.
I alienate potential friends, and purposely sabotage any notion of a friendship before it has a chance to grow. I don't know why I do this.
I don't think I know how to be a friend or would have anything to offer another person.
I don't know what being in love is like.
I don't know what it is to love, or be loved.
I felt nothing when my mother got cancer.
I didn't visit my father at the hospital when he got sick. Or my brother.
I have suicidal thoughts.
I hate having to pretend that I care... about anything.
I have zero life experience.
I'm a blank slate.The deafening silence of being alone for so long has become unbearable. I don't put the blame on anyone but myself.
I feel silly posting my troubles, when there are so many others with more serious troubles. Things that make my list look like a scraped knee.
- If you're being serious, welcome to life. I would suggest you join a meetup.com group.VikingKingEleven
- Next turn off your TV forever.VikingKingEleven
- Start reading books and pick up a hobby.VikingKingEleven
- then when thats all said and done, join the tea party. :)VikingKingEleven
- I thought you inherited 200k and were moving to Amsterdamabettertomorrow
- Viking- i rarely watch TV, and i read all the time. As far as a hobby, i train/race bicycles.CanHasQBN
- abt- i havent received it yet. and it's not inheritance. You can't assume money will make you happy.CanHasQBN
- No, but freedom (which money provides) certainly does.abettertomorrow
- i'm just not expecting it to. i already make a nice salary, so i've learned long ago that it means nothing if you haveCanHasQBN
- nobody to share it with. we'll see.CanHasQBN
- Well atleast you're grounded and seem to know whats real. Try a meetup.com group.VikingKingEleven
- one thing is, family is very important. Try to connect if possible. Even if it seems hard to do.VikingKingEleven
- Are you Dexter Morgan by chance?maikel
- a lot of this could be just the way you look at things. think positive, organize your life, learn something newscarabin
- are you proud of yourself? a lot of the things you mention seem to relate to 'self-worth'.
(im not trying to sound smart)Hombre_Lobo - no, not proud of myself. i feel like i haven't even done anything to be proud of. i literally haven't done ANYTHINGCanHasQBN
- ..ANYTHING. ie, blank slate.CanHasQBN