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i feel good even though i am coughing a lot... it feel great to have stopped smoking cigarettes... since my last trip to asia which i feel is the starting point of a bad path in my life the first domino that tipped over...when i started smoking cigs again it was the bane of my life... i i didnt just walk into it slowly i picked it up all over again like it as life itself... been on the 3-4 packs a day ride since august... outside of the money spent on it, smelling like ass, it shook me to my very core... i wanted nothing more to do with it and there i was sucking it down... as i was smoking rather heavily i almost or came close to stopping smoking weed... the change of it was felt by many and my mood swings started to come in rather strongly... weed always calmed me down and lessened the day-dreaming and very intense night dreams i would have... i smoked pot specificly to calm down my intense dreams... they became so vivid i couldnt decifer the real from the fake...on average i get only 3-4 hours max of sleep on any given day... i have a very ultraa fast metabolism and thus i dont sleep... im over active and more awake than not... being awke all that time gave me more time to smoke cigs... it was bad... i stopped smoking cigs 8 years ago soley becuse i would have bad chest pains and cough up blood... being 35 years old now and looking to that time back then its scary being so young yet feeling so weak and old...i just stopped. ended it right there and then... it was very hard to stop... at that time previously i tried to "quit" many times... only to be pushed back into it by people i no longer keep as friends... they would taunt me into smoking again... put lit cigs in my mouth type of things... even my ex wife did that same thing... she still is a heavy smoker... well now im back but on aq new path as the old one has failed... i hope forever this time it sticks... i dont want to smell like ass anymore!!
i want my sense of smell and taste back!!! i want my life back!!!smoking sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks for listening...
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- Good on you for quitting the heaters. Keep it up. We're here for you.
NotByHand - thanks NBH!!!!
:)e-pill - Maybe a vaporizer for the weed would help get your mind off smoking anythingismith
- I'll quit smoking too. Now it's a pact.ninjasavant
- Good on you for quitting the heaters. Keep it up. We're here for you.