offing yourself
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It's a strange subject, but one I think about and often struggle with everyday. I tried when I was 20. Took about 30 xanax, a handful of soma, a handful of sleeping pills then filled the bathtub and cut the bajesus out of my arms (yes lengthwise). Things in life that used to make me happy just dont anymore. Just sorta in this in between place I guess.
The only thing preventing it from happening again is I remember how devastated my family and friends were. I woke up in the hospital 2 days later on a respirator and saw my mom crying in the corner. She wasn't aware I was awake yet and I just sorta watched her for a little while realizing any pain I may have felt, her's must have been a thousand times worse. Then other day's I'm like "fuck it" I dont care if its selfish.- lol.. makes your pseudonym quite funny after hearing that storythatblokemike
- Rough story mate. It's never that bad, man. If you ever need to talk, contact me.********