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so this dude I know, a guy I had mad beef with for years, a guy who is indirectly responsible for the 1 inch scar on my face... who has pulled guns on my crew and punked me... a guy who never rolled alone and who lost his temper often and for nothing, who I hated more than any person ever in my life... died.
He shot himself in the head. All I could think when I heard the news was "cool."
Am I wrong to feel indefferent? or dare I say a tiny bit radiant? I feel weird about it. Like I should be sad... but I just can't muster a single tear.
- petzi0
if he'd talk more than fighting, he would live today. sad.
- unknown0
I hadn't seen the guy in two years. he had a lot of demons inside him.
- neeko0
hmmn, i dont think its "wrong" not to feel sad that someone who made your life miserable is dead... sort of natural to feel a sort of relief.
i do think its a sad state of affairs that so many people in the world think that the answer to fixing their own miserbale lives is to make other people miserable... strange world we live in where we derive joy from causing other people anguish.
(that said ive smiled once or twice after cutting people off on the highway, so im only making the observation, not saying im any different)
- unknown0
its not your fault he shot himself, and its not your fault you couldnt stand the guy... I dont think its wrong your not upset, its perfectly normal.
- TNDAP0
Nah, it's two sides to that...I've been there where you're a "normal" acting dude and you just getting fucked with...it happened to me in high school, it happened to me around my way and who knows depending on my company I might get into a beef again. I know the feeling when you're so angry at this cat for causing you so much grief that you ready to take him out yourself, they taking you out of your character and that's fucked up. There was a summer when I was 16 and I got jumped by like ten dudes, I wnet and got my pop and marched back up there and fought them all one by one (My pop was there to make sure they didn't roll on me again)...It's just shit we gotta go through and yes we wouldn't have to go through it if this jack-off would leave us alone but on the flip this dude has love ones so relief is understandable, but cool it ain't...that's death and ain't is no coming back from that.
- unknown0
I cant be arsed fighting...
- ********0
if you were jumping up and down singing HALLELUJAH, then yes you would be a bit of a dick....but you're actually taking the time and energy to wonder why you feel the way you do. this guy evidently had deep problems of his own and you're bothering to consider that in spite of how he treated you- count yourself lucky to be a considerate nad compassionate human being.
Nothing wrong with the way you're feeling at all.
- unknown0
wow, thanks. I feel a lil better.
- bedhead0
guns, crews, rolling with posses, getting punked, scars that can be accounted for in indirect ways?
i live in the dirty and i dont even understand most of that. kindve like french hiphop.
and yes, suicide, bad.