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I don't want to jinx it, so I’ll keep it thematic.
I don't play the lotto, but I understand why people do. It’s about the time between putting up the money and the results of the draw. That dopamine hit is exhilarating, sweet poison that keeps you stuck, hoping for luck.
Sure, I invest money into my personal work. It’s giving lotto vibes, for sure. But the time is what stings the most. You can make more money, but not more time. The older I get, time seems comes at a steep premium. And each ticket I pull is worth a good slice of the life I have left.
Anyway, something I wrote could fall into the hands of someone who could unlock everything before the end of the year if luck finds me in its crosshairs. It’s just one of dozens of lottery tickets I’ve been banking as I grind away in my dark corner over there. I just keep reminding myself to keep my head down, stay focused, and not get carried away with shiny dreams when slow progress usually wins the race. But I can't help but think about what life would be like if this were the ticket that hit.
Dreaming of doing or making something important that touches people is a silly pursuit in the grand scheme of things. But I keep doing it for reasons I can't explain other than this is how creative humans cope.
Now it’s time for me to feed my dog. Goodnight y’all.