Turns out I'm dating a Pro...
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Update: we officially broke up.
The last time we were together sexually was so bad. God. I went to pick her up to get some food, but instead, she answered the door half-naked and put an industrial-strength blunt in my mouth. I have no idea what the fuck was in that thing, but it took us both out. We fucked, but we passed out without finishing.
Cut to the middle of the night, and I heard the shower running and gagging sounds. I stumbled into the bathroom, and she was throwing up on the shower floor. It was scary.
I jumped in and saw that she was conscious but in rough shape. Thankfully, it wasn't something more severe like an overdose or something — probably just the combo of weed and alcohol — but it was such a heightened moment. "I have to get out of this chaos."
After that, I started limiting contact and faking business trips to create separation between us. Variations of "I've just been so busy" became my default text. Silence is a weird thing. On the one hand, it can cause people to drift, which was my plan. On the other, it can become a repository for all emotions. Silence makes the heart grow fonder... or enraged, in her case.
At this point, we last spoke about three months ago. In my mind, I had thoroughly moved on. A couple of days ago, though, I got a wall of texts at 3 in the morning with her claiming all kinds of craziness — lots of "how dare you..." energy. It was a lot.
I checked out her "professional" page and saw she's still active on the platform. My first thought was to send her a link to her profile as my response, but I knew that'd lead to a full-blown meltdown.
Instead, I apologized for my lack of communication and said I needed to be single. This led to a slew of threats, which put me in a weird place. Too much to get into now, but I've made it to the other side.
It's funny because, through all this chaos, I can still see the girl I actually like below it all. It's just so buried. Amid all her crazy texts, she was still cracking jokes like "I need you... you're giving my vag blue lips," which is hilarious. But it had to end. And it did. Given all the terrible ways this could have ended, I'm just glad it's over.
Repeat: I'm just glad it's over.
- Send her the book: Trauma by Paul Conti. And get a copy for yourself too.shapesalad
- If you thought you could make her drift away from you with silence, you're a bit naive. Speaking from experience, you have to be blunt as fuckIanbolton
- You dumped her because she greened out and barfed? Shit man. Were you even in love?nb
- @nb... nah man, I'm cool with vomit. It was part of a larger set of events. Chaos at every turn.catpower
- @lanbolton... you're so right. gotta be like this: https://www.youtube.…catpower
- I'm kind of happy you survived this trip. To me, this sounds like a happy-ending.
All the best to you!SimonFFM - it had to end this way. anything else would have been a disappointment. burn fast burn bright burn outhans_glib