I'm a muslim, ask me
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- georgesIII0
Hey Beeswax, first thing, thanks for this AMA,
my questions are:
• what was your initial reaction when you heard there was another attacks happening in Paris?• What will the next weeks be like for you and your muslim friends?
• Do you believe isis to be a genuine islamic group?
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I had to take some time off internet since this happened,
my super pregnant sister live in paris, her apartment is right next to place de la Bastille (for those who don't know paris, it's very close to where bataclan is and she was in the neighbourhood where the attack happened but went to bed around 8pm)I spent the night trying to reach her to no avail, till she called saturday morning to tell me everything was alright, that she was just tired cause she's pregnant and people kept on calling her, so she muted her phone,
why am I telling this story, my sister is married with a french muslim, she never had to convert, her oldest son never had to convert, she has another son that will probably never convert and so on and so on, we are proud that our parents didn't force us into following blindly,
But I can't let go of this feeling of great shame, shame for the people and families of the people who had to lose their life like this, shame that my first feeling wasn't for the victims but more hoping that it wasn't muslims again, I hoped that it would be someone else this time( I still feel weird just to think I was hoping for that :/ ) , I felt shame for the comments I read online,
but the greatest shame came from the realisation that no matter how many years, how many generations of my family and friends will be born here and no matter how integrated we all are, we will never ever be truly european. Every single act we make is scrutinised and when someone from our country, religion or skin color commits a crime, we are immediately lumped together, no matter how open minded and in love with the country of birth/residence.
How do I tell people that I'm sorry for the act of a few without sounding like an hypocrite, that I know the feeling of pain of losing someone like this, without sounding like an hypocrite, every time I find myself defending myself and my close friend, saying things like "not all arabs are..., not all ...",
but even I have stopped doing it,
so here am I on a sunday morning wondering how the next week will be, what will be the french response, how the millions of french arabs living in France will react, how the world will react,
tomorrow is monday, my head hurt, thanks in advance for your answer, fuck isis
- I felt anger. first towards big powers who mess up things for nothing, then to us who haven't said much when we heard our governments supported terror that ledBeeswax
- to these incidents eventually. USA got hit by a group that they started against Russia. Turkey got hit by ISIS twice and over 100 people diedBeeswax
- And current TR government sent them weapons. We heard and protested about it but not enough. France always have a hand in middle east oil. UK as well.Beeswax
- I can't internalize the pain of the family members of people died in Paris. I can't handle that. I can't get a sleep if I do that.Beeswax
- Upcoming weeks won't be different for muslims here. Only if I want to travel abroad I expect more security, I understand that.Beeswax
- If I get profiled, I understand that too.Beeswax
- There's no killing of civilians in a war in Islam. http://www.juancole.…Beeswax
- I get embarassed too. And worse I might get defensive like you did. I want to do something about it. Something with people like us. We have to say stopBeeswax
- organise Muslims against terror. Let them kill their own beast. But once you do that you know what will they say?
Where were you when they killed us?Beeswax - thanks for the honest answer, I kinda feel bad because it seems everytime there's an act of savagery like this, everyone wonders why did it happen?? why us??georgesIII