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I caved.
I confronted her this morning. It was over text messaging, but I couldn't wait any longer. Didn't sleep all night and was starting to come apart this morning. I was planning on a face to face, but I couldn't take the torture of holding it in any longer.
I'm not sure what the ramifications will be moving forward. But I can't even explain how it feels to have gotten that out in the open with her. She claims she's done nothing wrong, and that it was all just "talking." I know the truth though and that's what matters. I feel like I can stop obsessing over it so much now and maybe work on moving on. Doesn't make it hurt less, but that dark festering shit that was driving insane feels like it's gone. Maybe I will actually be able to sleep and eat again.
Out of curiosity I looked at the phone records (i need to stop that, it only serves to upset me). I wanted to see if she contacted him after we'd texted. Come to find out she was texting with him the whole time I was pouring out my heart out to her and she was denying having done anything wrong.
Not sure how things will go from here. Not sure if she's going to continue to be civil and not turn this ugly. It know it's probably short lived, and maybe a little selfish and reckless to the big picture, but holy fuck - what a relief.
I'm not sure counseling will happen, no matter what I want. She's past it and she'll never admit to it or say sorry. Again - I know the truth, and I've told her that. Now it's up to her to be truthful with herself.
Thanks again everyone. I'm sure this isn't the end of it. Probably just the start...
FYI - the divorce diet is super effective at losing weight. I wish I could package this shit up and sell it. I'd be worth millions.
- oh wowmonospaced
- Good on you. That's a huge step forward, sir.mikotondria3