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*sigh...
... truck still impounded... the price to pick it up today would be $420 (approx)... and it keeps rising $15 / day. Little brother is making money now by working at my Dad's house... pulling weeds / washing windows / cleaning the pool / washing the cars and the boat etc etc... ... good ol' Dad can't help but make sure you earn that cash!... can't just lend the guy $500... nope... he's a fucking banker / accountant (as is his wife) so everything must be first 'earned' and then accounted for.
Now I appreciate this thinking - Pops has instilled it in me and it's served me well - I'm not much of a burden on anyone... however... I just spent 4+ months out of work due to heart problems that were out of my control (resulting in first a heart attack followed by surgery). My little brother just did the same kind of hospital time (he was in assisted living for about 2 months on top of his hospital time) due to serious pneumonia, a staph infection AND he had Valley Fever... ... all at once.
Neither my brother or I can be held accountable for our time spent in the hospital - it was just health shit beyond our control... my heart has been shot for years due to a birth defect and my brother's sicknesses aren't exactly caused by 'living carelessly'... shit just happens.
Regardless - my family can't seem to just 'lovingly' step up and help out. Everything still must be balanced and 'earned'... for instance - I hadn't gotten paid by some clients when i got out of the hospital... and my cash was exceptionally short - I merely asked my father for $100 and asked in such a way that hopefully showed him I was a bit desperate AND embarrassed that I had to even ask for help... but I was at least hopeful he'd see the situation as just being one of those times that someone is 'fucked' and you have compassion and help out.
The man emailed me w/ a list of ideas on how I could earn $100 quickly... first starting w/Food Stamps, then pawn shop... and onto yard sales etc... ... mind you - this all 3 weeks after I just had my CHEST HACKED OPEN and my ribcage butterflied out across the table so a physician could cut out my aortic valve... blah blah blah...
... it wasn't like I was being lazy and not working... it wasn't as if I had squandered away my money etc... ... I was just in a really really tight spot...
What sucks is it doesn't end there - my Dad went on to further tell me about (in his email) the only time had ever asked for money in his life. He was in his mid 20's and had a 'big' job interview so he asked someone to borrow $200 for a nice suit... ... and he then went on to proudly tell me how he paid them back w/INTEREST (even though it wasn't asked for)...
... *sigh...
I wanted to write back something awful and hurtful but there's this 'rule' in life about honoring your Father and Mother...
... it's just weird to me... because when my friend's get sick or someone in their family is in need - the whole family comes together... people all pitch in to help out w/the house / kids / pets / bills / what-have-you... ... but in my weird family... you first gotta ask for help because it's not just 'built-in' to their brains that you 'take care of your own'... ... instead 'help must be earned' in my family...
... perhaps I'll remind Dad of that in 20+ years when he can't walk to the front door to get his paper or perhaps his fixed income juuuuust isn't enough to pay for his food / medication that month... ... I'll have to start thinking of chores he can do to earn my help...
*sigh... OF COURSE I'D NEVER DO THAT... ... but ffs... sure feeling that way lately.
Family can really suck sometimes.
- hehe... sorry for airing out my daddy issues in the blog ;)PonyBoy
- hopefully you had friends that would lend you $100?********
- also, don't be too hard on the old man. he probably thinks that teaching you to be tough is his gift to you and to waver from that would be to undo all his teaching.********
- from that would be to undo all his careful teaching.********
- regardless, i'm sorry, ponyboy. i know you'll get along somehow, though. you're resourceful enough! (:********
- That's pretty shitty ponyboy. More for your situation about the $100. Your brother sounds like he needs to smarten up so the work might be a good thing.canuck
- work might be a good thing. As opposed to a bail out.canuck
- kev, what you need is more external stimulus to match your chaotic life other lifestyle..epill
- you should move to NYC..epill
- when i look here.. all i see is "CHEST HACKED OPEN"
epill - HACK THE PLANET!!!epill
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- stay goldenmonospaced