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One of these days I'll find a girl that I can just be with instead of run and/or hide with... not that that it can't be fun, but it's so emotionally draining to keep it up.
- I'm happy in a very sad way and vice versa, but I guess things are good. I am "free" I guess.ismith
- For the record, I'm grinning sheepishly but in no way does it make me confident...ismith
- I need to do some work too... but I need to do something.ismith
- When, where, or what I have no idea. There are a lot of things I want to know but don't want to think about.ismith
- It will be amazing to see what happens in the next phase. These are my final 90 days, I'm just not sure of what.ismith
- Now I'm just making a fool of myself :)ismith
- tomorrow will be better, stay positiveali
- I'm sure it will be, but how's it going to be different the next time it happens? It's fairly consistent and I can't determine where it's leading...ismith
- what it's leading me towards.ismith
- ah illusive youthmegE
- Why the need to run/hide?ali
- Because I'd feel awful if I was prevented to contribute due to any stigma or label, of which there are so many...ismith
- same goes for all those involved with me, whether by agreement or simple associationismith
- It's not something I could discuss here though besides the minor frustrations...ismith
- And by "here" I mean public internet forum that rarely deletes posts and also ranks very high in Google...ismith
- idk. I think in the end, I just need to figure out how not to be a burden that doesn't feel so disingenuous...ismith
- On a lighter note, I had forgotten what a wonderful feeling it is to be in bed with another person...ismith
- That's going to take more than a couple days to get over, heh.ismith
- I will seek my catharsis tomorrow, if I do make it to sleep tonight.ismith
- I know I've got to do the QBNTPE thing, but I think I'm going to drop off the web for a bit. Will be good for me.ismith
- :(megE
- It's alright Meg :) "the dude abides" no matter how uncomfortable it can be at timesismith