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Wanted to update the blog yesterday but phew! so busy....
Had the shits all day yesterday from a dodgy kebab :(
Pulled back into London late monday night and M said she'd pick me up and drive me home. This was lastminuite.com and I'm glad because it means i don't have to see her on the weekend and I got plans for that shit and that its valentines and we dont want that giving anbody any ideas. How sweet, cos it was raining and she does things like that which is bad cos i can get used to that level of care and consideration. conversation on the way down tho. She said, "I've been thinking about you... Remember when i first met you and you said that i shouldn't trust you, and even last week when u were in Munich u told me that i shouldn't trust you..." Woah, buzzkill. Here I am all loved up that she came in the driving rain to take me from the station to my home in the middle of the night which is an hour and more for her all like awwww. Still, well she recently got out of a relationship where she was "cheated" on and i make it a point to tell her what a "dick" i am. A futile effort to manage expectations so i offer weak exlpanations. "I would never set out to hurt you..." "Well obviously, no one sets out to hurt someone, just you act selfishly in a moment of weakness..." "Yeah, that's true. And i know i'm weak, in that respect, and if i could get away with it, i'd chose the callous option... But we've only known each other a few months, and trust is something you earn and I have to earn it still..." Ok, that was enough to shut her up. I do like her, she has bravado and an extroverted personality i love in a girl but yeah... but. She told me she made out with a girl last week - and i know she did it cos i was out and she knew what i'm like and what i get up to (how i met her) so she told me the story of a girl on her trampoline in her garden and ordinarily i would encourage her to explore her bi-side and i have been but not when i'm not there. But this is stupid and i rationalise it away, only she makes me sandwiches for work whenever i stay over, and that kinda shit gets me attached and possessive but i rationalise it away. We have sweaty pointless sex, and once again in the morning. She likes the vibrator i brought her back from Munich, and i left her in my bed when i went to work which was a gesture of "trust" on my part which she appreciated and she sent me a text at work telling me she came twice in my bed with her new toy. Hehe. She's nuts. She's 29, so a couple of years older than me, but at that age where a girl's sex drive goes through the roof and she's fully multiorgasmic and damn she can teach me a thing or too.... i can barely keep up.
Anyway, enough of that faggotry. Peak fitness was not achieved in the month of January. This was highly dissapointing, as this month was meant to be a period of solid training. Unfortunately a cold, a business trip, and the snow fucked things up - as well as going to leeds, which was a bad choice. So goals were not met like they were meant to, but we're already into February and now we're on February plan time.
Easing myself back into the pickup game. Last weekend was a start. Going out WITHOUT FAIL three times a week - Thursday, Friday, Saturday. This gets bumped up to 5 times a week come March (Mon, Tue, Thur, Fri, Sat). Meeting asterix and robo tomorrow, and Friday, and pilled up rave on Saturday.
Considering adding Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor's (SSRIs)to repertoir of drugs such as anti-depressants sertraline or paroxetine or a 5-HTP dietary supplement instead.
Glory times!
- The countdown to your cerebral embolism begins when?Nairn
- 'scuse me?Khurram
- Just an impression, shared.Nairn
- I don't follow.Khurram
- Slow down, is all I'm saying.
Unless, of course, I'm completely wrong - in which case, carry on regardless.Nairn - o i c, with the drugs? Don't worry, I'm not as flippant with this shit as i sound.Khurram