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Another big fight with my mom.
She can never be happy with me hanging out with my friends and tries to make my life miserable before I leave the house. She does this to every one of my siblings (except maybe my brother, whom she likes the best). I think it's because she's jealous that I don't have as much fun with her, or that she doesn't go anywhere outside of Canada. I don't know what happened, but she's been miserable for the past 5 years or so. She swears so much more, fights with my dad more, complains about everything (including that everyone around her is taking trips all the time and that she doesn't go anywhere); hates work because she can't take any kind of stress; is close-minded, more OCD than I am, and is extremely needy.
She bad-mouths every single one of my friends, and I bet it's because she knows I respect them more than I respect her sometimes (this only got this way because she rarely respects me and I'm not dealing with that anymore). I'm more rational (like my dad) whereas she's more emotional, but today I just exploded. I rarely open my mouth and say anything as horrible as the things she says to me, and I was still pretty refrained today from what I could've said. I wonder if I will actually say really horrible things back to my mom one day. Probably not, but you never know :/
Right now I can hear her telling my dad that I'm going to go mental from using the computer all the time or that I'm upset because my hotdogs were burnt (I like them well-done, which my parents think is actually me being excessively stupid and burning them by accident, WTF). She is missing the larger picture here. We will never be close again, at least not for a really long time. One thing is for sure - I can never talk to her about my feelings because she's disgustingly judgemental.
My parents don't know a lot of things about me and I can't tell them much. I gave up as soon as I started university, because I know (for a fact) that they aren't going to change, particularly my mom.
No need to point out that I should move out. It's not always that simple.