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Anyway, I went to bed, I thrashed, I tossed, I toiled, I accepted my insomnia and I'm up again.
I have a problem that vexes me. I'm burned out. I really really really want to stop doing commercial work for a few months and get my website sorted, do some personal work and shock of all shocks... maybe go and do a bit of freelance graphic design. I put away my graphic design hat completely in 2005 and right now I really really really have a hankering to get back to doing some nice, understated, paired back, classic, quality design.
Trouble is, I have this one job that if I'm really really honest I was ready to see the end of about 18 months ago and it just keeps going on and on, and the client thinks I must be really happy about that, and probably a sane person would be. It started off as a one off piece of artwork, (book cover) then there was a sequel, then the US publisher wanted me to do their artwork too, but totally different to the UK stuff, so I did book one for them, then book two, meanwhile the UK commission book three... which also means book 3 is needed in the US, and then the UK say "hey! Book four and five!!!!... and guess what... we liked your more interesting approach on book three so much that we want you to completely redo book's one and two again to look more like book three for our next pressing ISN'T THAT GREAT!?!?!?!?!
And... it is. It is great. And thank you for the work becuase I really appreciate it. One book cover is rapidly turning into fifteen. And I really like doing the US ones as they are much nicer than the UK ones, but part of me wants to cry at the the thought of doing book one and two all over again because frankly I need to prioritise my website as my main business marketing item becuase its piss poor, the best work is not even on there, and clients tell me, daily, how fucking awful my site is. But there's a recession coming, so I should be grateful for the work, and get on with doing it because its paying the bills and the client needs to feel they can rely on me to see a project through no matter how long it goes on for so they'll come back to me for more...
but really, I just want to be free from any obligation for a while. I sense a commissions downturn in the air and I really feel the strong urge to get my website sorted out VERY SOON to help tackle that, but I need to set aside a LOT of time for that, to shoot packshots, to tweak artworks to the optimum quality, to go through 12x 500gb external hard disks looking for all that stuff, and doing my site nicely this time, and AAAARGGGHHHHHH I CAN'T FUCKING SLEEP. I CANNOT SLEEP AT ALL. ALL THESE THOUGHTS. FUCK. LET ME SLEEP.