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I've been having periods of acute depression, recently.
Apparently, it's becoming noticeable. A number of people have remarked about it.
John Sundstrom thought it might be a good idea if I spoke to you about it.
-Do you want to sit down? - No. I'm not good at confessional.
What can I tell you?
The last year, two, three... It goes way back, I suppose.
I remember entertaining suicidal thoughts as a college student.
At any rate...
I've always found life demanding.
I'm an only child of a lower-middle-class people.
I was the glory of my parents. "My son, the doctor"." You know.
I was always top of my class. Scholarship to Harvard. The boy genius.
The brilliant eccentric.
Terrified of women, clumsy at sports.
God, how do I go about this?
I understand you just separated from your wife.
I left her a dozen times.
She left me a dozen times.
We stayed through a process of attrition. Obviously, sadomasochistic dependency.
My home is hell.
We've got a 22-year-old boy. I threw him out of the house last year.
A shaggy-haired Maoist.
I don't know where he is.
Presumably, building bombs in basements as an expression of universal brotherhood.
I've got a 18 -year-old daughter who's had two abortions in two years...
got arrested last week at a rock festival, for pushing drugs.
They let her go.
The typical affluent American family.
I don't mean to be facile about this.
I blame myself for those two useless young people.
I never exercised parental authority. I'm no good at that.
Oh, God, I'm no good at this, either.