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    So long fellas.
    Yes, i have been there before. and i came back, well in fact i was never away.

    Things have happened to me and to people that i dearly love that made me look to the world in an even more "grown-up" fashion then i already did.

    i don't want this to be all about me. it's hard, but we all have periods like that in our lives. i tend to look for quietness, a midnight ride on my bike in dark wide open fields and contemplate. endlessly.

    so i won't bother you with all that is me. we all have our own "me: to worry about. or to inflate at times. or to hide.

    ego's are crazy things. and so close to nature in reality.

    anyway, i could tell about how i feel this transforming "me" does not fit in the current frame of all that is NT, or perhaps mostly public voice network.

    i just felt obliged to report here, for the last time, as 4cY.

    i will not be gone. but i cannot guarantuee this. there may come a moment i cannot even answer emails any longer. i am far from certain about this at this point.

    however, the ones i really genuinely care about, you know who you are. and do not ever hesitate to shoot an email, or to ask me my phone number, or to have a drink with whenever in your lifetime you may be around here.

    i am not intending to read all the posts to this thread here anyway, since there's so many fake accounts who are even persistent beyond funny, it's getting seriously tiresome.

    i just want to salute everyone i respect and everyone i forgot at this point.

    i don't know where to go. it's all completely blank at this point, i don't even have ambitions anymore.

    i just want to say, pursue happiness, and really really forget about what people think about you, lose all these empty shields such as status, power, wealth.. and try to find out what it is you deeply, infitly deeple want in your life. and finding that out is really hard enough. i have been trying for almost 30 years now.

    so long fellas,

    janne.

    4cY
    (Jun 3 05, 17:05)

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    you will be sadly missed!
    :(

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