Venting...
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I've got one of those dads...long history of disappointment. We didn't talk for years. It's only been the last few years that I've opened up to him at all and if I get my hopes up (which for some reason can happen so easily) then I inevitably get sucker punched again. I can't say I'm entirely at peace about it all - still hurts - but I have come to accept that he is a complex, flawed man. I've had to accept him as a person and let go of the fact that he is never going to be the father I've tried to make him be my whole life.
I still cannot be close to my father; I limit my contact and am emotionally guarded. However, I am more able to appreciate and accept him as he is. The weirdest part is seeing things in me that are just like him (yowser!).
Sorry to hear...appreciate the people in your life who are able to be there for you and love you. That's what it's all about anyway..