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Fucking hell.. look after your brian's guys and ladies and don't burn out.
One or two weeks in recovering and I realize how much stress and work load I've had to endure. Still really in a bad way and my fucking brain actually feels bruised, my attention span is shot to shit and my current motivation is zero.
Pulling the plug on my personal project until the day I get more time. Ironically within one day of only coding at work I picked up a note book and wrote out a chapter of my book. All I ever wanted to do was write and story tell anyway.
Even thinking of leaving my current line of work to something more humane. Not to sure what though as not much innovation in London these days. Thinking of VR or something innovative.
I know there are some larger and more critical things happening in the world and they dwarf this message in compassions but point I'm trying to make is look after yourself as well as friends and family around you.
- :D Sorry, I know you're dyslexic, but "Look after your Brian's guys and ladies" is brilliant!detritus
- haha i only notice when things get pointed out! If my work is ever printed i might release an un-dyslexic version for the peoplez!mugwart
- us dyslexics still read as 'Brain,' anyway :)Gnash
- You've totally abused your Brian and now he's bruised and sore. Give give him a rest, the poor lad.set
- ;-)mugwart
- perhaps there's a way you can make your current job work better for you.Gnash
- it's very 'add' to pack up and move on! resist the urge until you've pushed through the fogGnash
- Tried to talk to work but they haven't been helpful as in really disrespectful.mugwart
- and @set - yes it is. I'm forcing myself to stop, brought myself some games and even forced windows on my pc (nerd!) so I will not do anything.mugwart
- really want to get back into my yoga but even that feels to much. Rest is good but feel so guilty not working.mugwart
- If you feel guilty for resting then it seems like there's some emotional trauma you need to face head on. You deserve to rest and be happy palset
- I'm calling my friend Brian right now.monospaced
- Youre right set, I am and am aware of it. My family abused me for wanting to write, they sort of derailed my further education. So I feel I have to over work tomugwart
- compensate. I also have a fear of failure of not achieving my writing goal/dream. Basically my inner voice screams at me to get a move on with it already!mugwart
- #melodrama!mugwart
- You've got all the time in the world. Go easy on yourself. You're already exhausted, piling on more won't helpmonNom
- man mug, hope you feel better. you need a trip to sunny san diego to hang with the crew out here and just chill.capn_ron
- have you tried Ketamine?Gnash
- ^ no, been thinking about a type of magic mushroom. I'm t total so not sure how it will react with me though!mugwart
- @capn, nothing I would love to do more! One day I'd love to take you up on that offer. Thank you, means a lotmugwart
- https://www.oxfordhe…Gnash
- MDMA has had a lot of positive therapeutic use. Talk to your doc about trying something radicalGnash
- cool. I've been trying to book appointment for the past 3 months! I'll add this to the listmugwart
- Get some shrooms in ye - no comedown, unlike MDMA.detritus
- if you've not done shrooms before, i wouldn't reco it. unless you'll be with someone that has some experience. like Detritus :)Gnash
- (and i don't mean self-medicate!)Gnash
- haha. I do love my shroom's, always cooking but these aren't the ones from the welsh valleys!mugwart
- “Your Brians” sounds like some cockney slang for gonadscannonball1978
- Quit everything and set up a Brian foundationfuturefood
- ^ think your onto something!mugwart
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