Treading water.
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Does anyone ever get the feeling that they just aren't getting anywhere fast? I woke up this morning and for no particular reason realised that my plan for London hasn't really worked out as hoped.
I'm not sure what i'm complaining about to be honest, i've landed a good job, I have a nice flat and i've met some decent people. Yet, I always seem to have this feeling that everyone else is having more fun.
I mean, i'm quite lucky but i'm still fed up. Anyone else get this and what do you do about it?
- blaw0
sounds like you need to try something new.
there's a lot of neat shit in this world of ours. try to come up with a short list of things you've never done (or even considered doing) and get on with doing them.
- ********0
I mean, i'm quite lucky but i'm still fed up. Anyone else get this and what do you do about it?
skt
(Apr 21 05, 04:38)Everyday. If I ever felt "right" I'd be worried. I try not to waste time but sometimes it just happens and that's when I can feel my soul leaking into the abyss.
The only way I could ever feel right would be to check out of life completly and become a hermit somewhere and bang rocks together and eat grass and make ever-better wigwams or something.
It's not you really skt. It's modern life tainting us.
But whatever. Step into the abyss to reclaim your soul - it only comes up to your knees.
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Step into the abyss to reclaim your soul - it only comes up to your knees.
determinedmoth
(Apr 21 05, 04:44)Class Moth, class!!
- emecks0
I'm hearing you loud and clear my friend.
I've got that very same feeling just now, the sun is shining like it only rarely does in Edinburgh's April, yet it's not having the effect that it should on me...
- ********0
You have a tad bit more on your plate than me though mx. I've had nearly 2 years since it all went tits up in the burg and I scarpered.
- UndoUndo0
the grass is always greener. no matter what you do, how much you earn, where you go it will always be the same and for me i want it to be that way. something to head for instead i think life would be boring.
consider rock and pop stars who have had it all at a young age.. they all got problems
- ********0
Unless you are working in some place that is doing ultra innovative work, you are never really going to think that you are doing something groundbreaking.
Look at it this way, don't worry about it, you are along with the other ~6,379,157,300 people not doing shit.
*lights joint, cracks Mickey's Big Mouth malt liquor grenade
- fate_redux0
De La Soul - Tread Water
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Hi, i'm mr fish.
- paraselene0
don't underestimate the role that london can play in all of this as well. sometimes i feel like the stone is more alive than i am.
and when things are good, like mx says, you know? today the sun is shining but i'm sitting here waiting for the other shoe to drop.
there's always the mini kafka sitting in my ear peeking out every thirty seconds to see if the migra is gonna come busting through the door. that's my own personal modern-life-paranoia, but i'm sure you've got your own tailor-made one.
when's your birthday, btw, skt? this shit has gotten worse lately because i've got one coming up.
- emecks0
You have a tad bit more on your plate than me though mx. I've had nearly 2 years since it all went tits up in the burg and I scarpered.
skt
(Apr 21 05, 04:52)recently yes...
I do know where you're coming from though... feels either like something is missing or that something is eating like a fucken cancer...
I'm thinking it's the city life, going to visit PapaMX in darkest Aberdeenshire
(http://maps.google.co.uk/maps?l...
this weekend to test the theory...
- paraselene0
http://maps.google.co.uk/maps?ll…
(i hate it when the links go wonky.)
is this so we can stalk you over the weekend, mx?
yes, yes, it's that combination of absence and the presence of something malignant.
like hunger and nausea and that alien baby from the old tv show v all at the same time.
- ********0
Step into the abyss to reclaim your soul - it only comes up to your knees.
determinedmoth
(Apr 21 05, 04:44)
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my word moth.
- paraselene0
Step into the abyss to reclaim your soul - it only comes up to your knees.
determinedmoth
(Apr 21 05, 04:44)
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my word moth.
Kuz(Apr 21 05, 05:08)
i know! i'm so proud to know you. our resident geek-cum-philosopher.
(go ahead, joke about the cum, but it's gramatically correct and contextually appropriate so i couldn't help myself.)
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when's your birthday, btw, skt? this shit has gotten worse lately because i've got one coming up.
paraselene
(Apr 21 05, 05:02)
Not till September, I think its more that I've now been here for a year now and its slowed down. I've met everyone I'm going to within my social circle, my job isn't exciting anymore and I'm just getting sucked further and further into debt.Funny thing is, tomorrow, I might wake up and be in a grand mood. My head does my head in sometimes.
Anyway, you all speak a lot of sense, thanks. I'm just going to have to pull my socks up I think.
- paraselene0
along with "get my skates on," "pull my socks up" must be one of my all-time-favourite britterish sayings!
- ********0
Alien-nation.
You always struck me as a very cynical sorta person skt. Don't be consumed by cynicism. Bad for your system. Or direct it in apostive directions.
All the best
- emecks0
maps.google.co.uk/maps...
(i hate it when the links go wonky.)
is this so we can stalk you over the weekend, mx?
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Erm, no, just to show all you urban Londonites what it looks like in a place where you are never more than a mile from an agricultural animal...Although......
perhaps an NT weekender in Burnett Towers could be aranged in teh future....
- ********0
"Pull your socks up", "peaks and troughs" and "git tae fuck" are probably my favourite and most over used sayings.
- rasko40
I feel temporary in everything I do, in every place I live. I have no benchmark to measure progress, I have no plan, I know not where I want to be.
I have this feeling that I am always going to be like this.
You know how some people just stayed at home and fitted into something, like they belonged and things fell into place around them? I sometimes wonder what it is like to be like that. Sometimes I feel jealous that they seem so happy with their holiday brochures and ikea sundays, mostly I realise that actually they are dull TV watchers, radio times buyers, non thinkers, John Grisham readers. I think they are smug and detestable car buyers of car magazines, I think they know nothing of originality or creativity, I think they are the 80% drones of consumerism. mindless, soulless idiots.
But then I wonder if this is some form of transference, a defence mechanism of my own subconcious, protecting me in my bubble as I float across the gardens, towards the rose beds thick with thorns.